FINAL

My one deed of kindness you betrays me with your selfish heart

Tearing me apart not knowing what you did as I just play along

Giving you my heart but deep down inside I’ll always remember what happened

And no matter how much I try to forget,

Thinking about it breaks me and makes me lose respect for you

Wishing that the mistake didn’t happen

Being reminded by my own thoughts

Makes everything harder to see

Jealousy washes over my mind and makes me say and do things I don’t mean

I slip poison words down your throat

Seeking answers that I haven't found yet

Wanting revenge for what you did but never wanting to hurt you

Wanting you to feel what I feel

Taking power over you

Thinking if I become dominant over you,

Or lead you, I could feel better

As I attempt to reach for the top you catch me in my own act and shoot me

Drowning in my own fear lest it happens again

Slowly I try to build myself back up

Not letting you touch me

I may not be able to control you

But my quest to be powerful

Makes me take it out on other people

Gaining power over people I didn’t mean to do

Despite what happened

I gave you what you wanted

Thinking that maybe you’ll have built up guilt

Then feel the exact same way I did

Knowing that it's impossible

I will keep the last thing you didn’t take from me

Hope that one day you’ll be able to feel the way I did

Broken.